the night i let Him go, i had a nightmare. i am in my bathroom trying to keep a rabid dog away from me. somehow the dog comes through the door, and he bites me in the stomach. a man who appears to be a priest pulls the dog back outside, and he tells me i need to preform an exorcism on the dog because he has "the devil" in him. i am confused about how to preform the exorcism, and the dog continues to leap at the bathroom door. this is all that i can remember.
i'm not a dream expert, but this is how i analysed my subconscience: the rabid dog represents my anger towards Him, and my anger is tearing me up from the inside (being bit in the stomach). My reason is represented by the priest who is telling me to preform an "exorcism" in order to banish the "evil" feelings that that have caused me to carelessly throw Him out.
my friend Emily tells me that the bathroom is usually a place of cleansing in dreams. this idea is parallel to my need to "exorcise" my anger from my mind.
yet i can also see this a different way- a more literal way: maybe my mind was telling me that i had finally cleansed myself of HIM, but i choose not to belive that. i missed him when he was gone.
anyway, none of that matters now, because now i have him back. and i love him.
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